Missing Bingley

I am here in London on a stormy, dull afternoon. The Gardiner's have been treating me fairly and I absolutely love it here, although there is one thing that has been disturbing my thoughts recently; this would be my longing to be with Bingley. I miss Bingley so much and I have many regrets regarding our relationship. I truely wish that I could have been more affectionate while I could. If I could have told him how I felt while I still had him with me, I know that things would be different. But now I am sitting here all alone with my thoughts thinking about what could have been...I miss you Bingley. -Jane